Ramadan sudah hampir berakhir and I found myself missing my abah even more. I just can't get this image of him sitting with me and the rest of the family together during break fast. His smile, the way he talked, I miss them all. 

I miss his smile the most. I wish that I can see his face one more time. 

I miss him so bad it makes me want to cry though I don't know why I keep the tears at bay. I wish I can just let go. I wish I can just be alone just for a while and not think of anything. Everything hurts. Everything is hard. Life is hard.... and I just want to see him again.