I have been fascinated with vampires since the moment I first watched the hit vampire series, Angel on TV2 years and years ago... Besides their majestic strengths, slickness, charms and dexterity (as movies and TV shows describe them), the thing that I wish to possess the most is their immortality... 

A few days ago, I recalled a scene from Angel where Connor sealed Angel in a metal box and sank him to the bottom of the ocean... It's fascinating that even after three months being under water, Angel submerged healthily... 

Based on that, I took a moment to imagine what would I do if I had that kind of mortality...

The first thing that came to my mind was to explore the deep blue seas... Hell, another thing that I've been interested in is deep sea explorations... I often wonder how it would be like being so deep that even sunlight cannot reach me... I have seen documentaries on bizarre creatures inhabiting the bottom and it triggered my curiosity on what others creepy things dwelling down there... Monsters? Aliens? 

I wouldn't have to worry about breathing if I were a vampire and therefore, I would have a problem being under water... The greatest issue would be getting visual... Well, I could just carry a torch light... 

The first terrain that I would investigate is the Mariana Trench... Only God knows what's really down there... 

Hey, that means I would be able to explore space too, right? Yeahhh! I won't have to worry about wearing thick space suits! I could go to Mars or Jupiter... Hohoho...

Vampires would make good explorers... Don't you think??

If I were a vampire, I would want to expand my species right? Thus, the next thing came to mind is establishing a vampire society... Not like the faggot society in Twilight (no offense Twilight fans), but instead, more like being portrayed in the movie Daybreakers... 

I would bite scientists, world leaders (Kim Jong Un exluded), armies, and famous people muahhahahahahahaha! Humans would be our cup of tea, literally!

Hmm... What else can I do...

A few days ago, while browsing through 9gag, I stumbled upon the post below... 

While I found it moderately funny, I also noticed how I could relate to it since I'm sort of an introvert myself... In case you're wondering what an introvert is, click here... 

Yes, me iz an introvert... I hate so much going to the barber's to cut my hair because almost all barbers I've encountered would ask me stuff like where do I work, when was the last time I cut my hair, what am I doing at this side of town and etc... I freakin' hate small talks with people who I barely know...

Sometimes, I have to hitch a ride with a person who I'm not close with or sit next to a stranger inside a bus and the whole ride would either be silent or it'll all be about me answering questions from that person... 

I often feel bad when a stranger asks so much about me like I'm the most interesting person in the world just to make a conversation but I don't ask anything about him/her... I just answer and wait for more questions... No more questions?? Thank God! Now I can plug in my earphones and ignore you forever...

Events and gatherings make me feel nervous because there would be so many people I don't or barely know present... I would either stuck to a person I'm close with from start til the end or just sitting alone wondering who to approach and what the heck to say...

Friends or colleagues who are reading this, don't be offended if I don't appear to be friendly to you... It's not you, it's me... This is my nature and I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings...

Many people asked, "Isn't it frustrating to not talk to anyone?"... Who says I don't talk to anyone?? I always talk to my wife... In fact, I love talking to my wife and I tell her everything... Even my darkest secrets... You might see us not talking to each other but why the hell would I have intimate conversations with my wife in front of you? 

Since the birth of my child, I've been asked this question so many times - "How does it feel?" 

For those who know me well, you might have guessed that I would answer the question with just one word or a very very brief sentence or simple gestures... 

Those who know me well might also have guessed that I'm better in expressing my personal thoughts in written form... 

So, here's my answer...

First of all, of course I'm very happy and excited! Ubaid is growing healthily and getting cuter day by day... To feel his tiny fingers touching my face, sort of blocking me from kissing his fat cheeks is priceless... To see him smile is the best thing ever! 

Though I do feel a bit guilty because my wifey has to look after him without my presence for most of the time... She's pursuing her Masters at UPM and I'm working as a lecturer at Politeknik Sultan Mizan Zainal Abidin, Dungun... Taking care of a baby is not an easy task especially for the mother...

Luckily, Ubaid is not the type of baby who would wail non stop... He'll make some noise only when he's hungry... There are times when he would be a bit difficult to handle but that's because he's not feeling comfortable... 

Yes, I do miss him a lot... There are a few times when I woke up in the morning and found myself being weepy... That's why I travel by bus every weekend to see him... Seeing that cute little thing inside wifey's arms as soon as I arrive there is just wonderful...

Can't wait for wifey's semester break! Both mama and baby will be coming to Terengganu and we'll be able to spend more time together!!!

Besides that, I'm feeling hopeful... I hope that Ubaid will grow up to be like me... No, I'm not talking about his future profession... Whether he wants to be a lecturer or radio DJ, it's up to him... As long as he's not robbing banks or anything... I'm talking about personality...

I dare to say that I'm a respected person... I'm cool and patient and humble and quite a nice guy... Maybe a bit introverted, but hey, that didn't stop me from having a cute girlfriend who I then married and now have a child with...

I want Ubaid to inherit all of my and wifey's excellent traits... 

Lastly, I'm very very very very excited as I want to take him to so many places and do so many things with him! Zoos, Kidzania, Legoland!! NERF guns, tree house, cartoons!! Ho ho ho...

All in all, I feel blessed and I'm hoping that the future holds much more happiness for my family... 

So, time for some pictures~