Today, when I was looking at myself in the mirror, I thought that I looked kinda handsome... With my  beard, I looked like Wolverine (Hugh Jackman)... I felt good about myself... That means my confidence level has gotten higher... That's good... I need it if I wanted to be a good teacher...

Then I thought about all of my past crushes... I wondered how would they think of me if they saw me now... I used to be quite a nerd... Though I never combed my hair, because of my quiet personality, people often considered me as nerdy and unattractive...Well, if those girls came to me now, trying to get some, I would tell them to stay away... Coz I'm taken...

I thought about how I used to do ridiculous things just to get those girls' attention... like how I always called them via the house phone to ask about homework... that didn't work so well because I always ended up being silent and they would hang up on me... I often planned about what I wanted to say before calling... I even rehearsed the lines in my head or in front of the mirror in my bathroom... But as I picked up the phone, those words seemed to fade away... Crap...

I remembered about ten years ago how I seldom cycled to the top of a hill near my place and screamed "I love u" loudly... by doing that, I hoped  that the girl that I was having a crush on magically heard me (even though she's like thousand miles away from that spot)... How ridiculous... I'm so embarrassed now... Seriously, what was I thinking?? Shit... I feel like shooting myself now... I blame all the Malay love movies I watched...

How I wished I could turn back time and undo that... Yeah, I would undo a lot of stuff...