Tomorrow I'll be leaving Melaka and go straight to Ketengah Jaya... I dont feel like leaving but I dont wanna stay either... But I have to go home... or else I'll be eating nothing but dust...


It's ironic... A few years ago I was riding my motorcycle thinking that I would never ever leave this Felda... With bushes on my right and palm trees on my left, I let the wind blew through my hair as I watched how beautiful the hills were from far... Ketengah Jaya, what a beautiful place... I wished I would never leave here... but as soon as I got out, I was reluctant to come back... there's more freedom outside...


Outside, there are no house chores, no annoying addicts bugging me around...
Outside, there are friends, my girlfriend, cinemas, shopping malls...


Maybe I'm starting to 'lupa diri'... heh~

No matter what I feel, I'm still hopping into that bus tomorrow... Maybe I do need a little break from freedom and go back to family...

Sigh...




P/S - my brother got 5A's for UPSR...

All I can think about now are curses... Fuck, Damn, MotherFucker, Asshole... All curses... (Pardon me for the foul words)...

A few years ago, I slapped my younger brother in the face for saying a single "Fuck"... He picked it up on movies... I never utter a single foul word until I got into Lendu... gradually, those words manifested inside my brain and now they have become a part of my thinking...

Every time I ran into trouble, I say Damn... Every time I see something unusual, I say Fuck... Every time I see extremely cute girls, I say Damn... What has happened to me...?

I blamed my environment... Before entering Lendu, I was the most innocent guy any Lenduer ever met... but now I've blended in... I'm uttering all those foul words with ease... no more worrying about Mommy slapping me to the ground or rubbing my lips with chili...

I guess cursing could be considered as a cool thing especially for a youth like me... I see all the movies where the heroes curse their enemies while gunning them to the ground... Fuck you monsters!! Die!! Die!! Damn cool...

Sigh...

How life can be so fucking ironic... When u strive so hard to keep something from slipping through your hands, others seem to be able to take it away from you with ease... Fuck life for that... Shit happens huh?


Luckily for me, I still remember how to say the Shahadah... there are some times where I'm so afraid of forgetting the name of Allah, I could not even sleep... with all of the foul words jumbled up in a pile inside, there is still a place where Allah's name is written on the wall of my brain... Thank God for that...

Allah, show me the way... Please...

Feeling lonely, I cycle my way back home into the gloomy night... the rain had just stopped so the road was dense and wet... I could hear bullfrogs croaking, asking for more rain... No, Mr. Frogs... not now... not until I reach home... An owl passed by up above the dark sky... it's white feathers were contrasting to the night sky so I could see it clearly soaring above me, searching for prey... Mr. Owl... you're giving me the creeps...

The road was empty... and I felt very lonely... I wished there are vehicles passing by indicating that I was not alone after all... but none came...

Then, it went even more silent as the frogs stopped their singing... Mr. Frogs, given up already? hehe...

I guess the concept of "The customer is always right" is not relevant in Malaysia... or at least in most of the shops I've entered so far...


Patisfrance in Gajah Berang - With a frown on her face, the cashier just throw my change onto the counter... So rude...

Parkson's Perfume section in Mahkota Parade - Everytime I enter the section, the salespersons always gave me a very judgmental look... instead, when a guy wearing a suit came in, he instantly got served with a big fake smile... Judgmental bitches...

Quayside restaurant - Alvin, my girl, kakak and I went to that place since kakak havent had her dinner yet... The waiter was kinda rude... no smiles at all and he seemed a little bit arrogant and lazy...

A&W Dataran Pahlawan and Melaka Sentral - I never want to enter A&W again because the service sucks...

and etc...

When I enter any kind of shop, I would expect a kind and good service... or at least a smile indicating that I'm welcomed... Besides, if I get a good service, I would definitely come again and bring my friends along...

Without us customers, there will be no sale...


Kalau taknak kerja, duduk rumah...

Dah lama rupanya aku tak balik Terengganu...

Went to watch a midnight show of "Phobia 2" with my girl, her sister and Alvin on Friday... This movie is consisting of 5 short horror movies and the last one is always the best... Yup, the fifth one made the movie worth watching... Very funny!! If you have watched the prequel of the movie, "4bia", you would expect that the last story of "Phobia 2" would be the most terrifying... but it turned out to be hilarious... we laughed so hard that our eyes were in tears... Overall, it's a good horror movie... :-P



Then, yesterday, I went to see "The Fourth Kind" with Alvin... The things that attracted me to see this movie was that it was based on actual case studies (which means that it's a true story) and Milla Jovovich... It was actually a documentary on a study done by Dr. Abigael Tyler on the strange phenomenon that has been happening to the people of Nome, Alaska... The residences have been having trouble sleeping and they kept saying that the thing that has been interrupting them every night was an owl by their windows... The owl seemed to do nothing but stared... Stared deeply into their eyes and they couldn't do anything about it... But as they remember more of the owl, they realized that it was not an owl... It was something else...

The movie felt real because actual audio and video recordings of events were shown... it was rather disturbing...

Alien abduction... Dr. Abigael claimed that the people of Nome were having alien encounters where thousands have been missing, including her daughter, Ashley and more were traumatized by the memories of being abducted... An actual video of a man killing his whole family before killing himself as a result of being traumatized was shown... Very brutal... The most disturbing part was when the aliens tried to warn Dr Abigael to not to expose their existence to the world through a man's body...

Though Dr. Abigael supported her study with audio and video recordings, but the study has not been accepted by people because

- the part in the video where aliens came were distorted though only the voice was heard
- Dr. Abigael was depressed of her husband's death and this may resulted to hallucination...
- Aliens? There was no concrete proof that they exist...

If you're interested in aliens, go watch... in the end, it's up to you to believe or not...







By the way, some people are just too stupid to realize that they are not supposed to have a little chat in the cinema... Wayang bukan tempat bergosip...

Pictures relating to my previous post...

Went out dating with my girl yesterday... we have bought tickets to see MJ's This is it last week and looking at the positive feedback regarding the movie, we were kinda eager to see it...

But before we hit the cinema, we went bowling in Mahkota Parade~ My girl has this new obsession towards bowling... I have to say that I kinda suck in bowling... Got a few strikes but mostly I hit the drain (longkang)... Since that was the third time I ever played bowling, so I guess that's not bad :-P Played four games of bowling... Thumb is now numb...

After bowling, we went to Secret Recipe since my girl have been craving for cakes for days... We had a slice of Chocolate Banana and a slice of Chocolate Strawberry and two cups of organic tea... The teas were free with the purchase of those cakes since it was already 3 PM... The cakes were heaven... I just hope that the taste just stay in my mouth because it was totally delicious... Once I put it in my mouth, the taste of chocolate mixed with a bit of strawberry filling sent me flying to seven heaven... I could even see imaginary doves flying into the air... Ahhh~~ I'm craving for more...


Then, we went to watch MJ!! I confess that I was not an MJ fan, but after watching This is it, I felt like singing to his tune again and again and again... The songs just stuck to my head and for the first time I wished I could dance like Micheal... Through out the movie I wished I could just stand up and sing along... But since everyone was so quiet, I just let out a few UUu!! Aww! and clapped slowly sometimes... The tune of Billy Jean stimulated me the most... I felt very excited watching MJ dance to the beat... Man, I wished I go and see MJ live... I would be a blast!! The girl guitarist was awesomely cool... The back up dancers were great... The crew... Everyone involved was totally great... MJ, the true legend...

Two thumbs up!


Lastly, we went for dinner at Johny's... We had a steamboat set for one person, tomyam beehun and BBQ chicken rice... Yummy Yummy~ not to forget some ice cream for dessert~


We had fun!!

:-D