Sometimes when I just lie down on my bed, staring at the walls and ceiling, I would wish that I had a lot of money... People would say that money cant buy you happiness... Well, they can go to hell... at least it will get me out of here... out of being ordinary... out into the world of wonders... far away from boredom...

If I have money, the first thing I would do is to buy a cool motorcycle... I'm not talking about those damn bulky ones... look at me, I'm as thin as a plank... tak larat nak angkat nanti...



Then, I want to send my parents to Mekah... Seriously, even though I'm their son, I hate to ask money from them... the money they had spent to send me to school, to feed me, to send me to the university... if they are put together, it will be enough to buy them a new bungalow... I'm in debt with my parents, and I want to pay them soon... Cepat la habis belajar!!!

After that, I want to catch up with life... I want to go sky diving and touch the clouds with my bare hands... I want to do bungee jumping and feel the blood rushing through my veins into my brains... I want to go to Hawaii and experience Eden... I want to be a National Geographic part time photographer... I want to try out an AK-47... learn jujitsu...



I hate to think that everyone is out there, while I'm in here, missing all the fun... just because I'm poor...

I hate to think that all those rich people are out there doing nothing when there are so many things they can and should do (especially that guy with the yellow Cellica... I'm not sure I spelled Cellica right but whatever)...

People would say, you'll get there... Damn I will... but maybe when I really did get there, I will be forgetting these dream... Maybe when I get there, I wont be thinking of sky diving but instead I will be thinking of taxes to pay, bills to sort out, kids to feed... maybe I will forget how to be young...

People would say, you should be thankful, at least you have a roof on your head, enough food to eat... but I guess it's human nature to be greedy... to yearn things that they cant have... Humans will always try to go further...

But in the end... still staring at the walls and ceiling, I would say to myself, "Kau memang suka berangan kan?"


Hmm... well, it's better than being empty and dreamless...